All i hope is for one to know
That faith has grant him the power of control
That my life is worthless till pillars soar into the air
And i will crumble when i hear a don't care

What good is it to stand by and watch
When one can do nothng even when the crying stops

I lay my love and hope
For i believe that there is a glimmer of hope
Not in myself but of those around me
What i want is to make them see
That they indeed are a part of me

Everything i have typed comes from my heart
I mean everything i say
I treasure friendship more than kinship
Don't make me lose it all
And watch it fly away

I have never felt such strong emotions...to feel it really makes me sick of living...whats the point of living when one feel's despair?
I really want to end it all
but what is hard for me isn't the pain of suffering
Is the pain of dealing with the fact that my loved ones are not there with me
That is when i will be truly miserable

it seems that now, all i can do is pray
that i might just sleep and never awake
hope that a plane crashes into my home

hope that anything can happen...
if i must go...
let me go peacfully without a trace...
if i were to survive and be a pain
Let me not remember for i don't want to be a burden

This can jolly well be the saddest moment in my life...
when i feel whats the point of living...

i will ask you this question...
What is the point of living when the ones most dear to you are avoiding you and hesitant to converse with you?

Please...my life is bad enough...a bad and deprived childhood isn't enough?
What more can be taken from me?
Must i be a pest to the society then i can be taken away???
I am not afraid to say i am crying
for a person with emotions will do the same

no matter how stong or brave a person is
when one is driven to a corner
they wil give themselves away...

this will be my ending post...
God...please...
answer my prayers...
i believe that there is more to suffering...
where is the love...