Friday, July 4, 2008 @ Friday, July 04, 2008
I notice a super bad condition which i have developed...i have become emo lately for dunno what god forsaken reason...as in...i know what it is...and yet...not so sure...
i really doubt that with this kinda life...i am gonna enjoy it...
but we dunno when i'll be gone...or anyone around me will be...so i must treasure them...

yea...and also, thanks DOCTOR for counselling me for the week yea? it really sort of helps lift the burden of me and i am grateful for that...you could have just hung up on me but you didn't! and i really appreciate that!
there is so much you did for me and yet now when you are feeling down, i can do nothing to help ease a simplest thing and all i can do is wonder...WHY?
I cannot even see the pain...thats how much of an asshole i am...and i am terribly sorry for it...i am not a good kor and patient... :'(

i'm sorry...

I would like to take this time to apologise to everyone and most of all, Xiiao Didi for all the "harm" which i have inflicted...although you don't mind it...i still cannot forgive myself for being such a (*&^%$#...truly sorry...

When mahagony blooms
I stand by the trunk...
tears ejected and coaggulating...

I watch while the bird are shot
to cowadly to protest out loud
seeing the feathers fade into the soil
where memories are etched in pain