So its all over...
i never ever meant for it to happen this way...

i thought that by doing so...
got more time to be closer...
cos its like...not much time left for me...
but i didn't expect things to turn out this way..
it isn't easy for me to dare say this...
i knew that by saying over the phone...
it will sound all......

all i wanted was to be able to be with my pillars more...
but i really didn't expect anything to turn out this way
you know that i won't...
i am sorry for all the hurt i have caused...

i know that there is already a scar there on you...
i really didn't mean to hurt you...
what i thought was a way of "bonding"
turned out to be hurtful...

I am such a selfish mother fucker...
i really hate myself for causing all the pain and hurt to you...
i didn't spare a thought for your feelings at all...
i am sorry...

Its over...
everything is in vain...sorry
sorry...
if you can...please...treat me normally...
i really will die...

i agree that i am a selfish nobody...
sorry...
i want us to remain buddies forever...
i thought that this day wouldn't come...
but WHY?
why now in this troubled times...

I wanna confess everything now...
I am not a perfect person everyone thinks i am...
i have a bad past cos i have cancer last time...
i don have a perfect family...
its broken...or to me it is...

there is no more love in this world...
all the love that i am feeling is gone...
my glimmer of hope has extonguished...


please...let me die...
i dont want any more things in my life...i just want to die...
i know you want to pharse it in a nice way...
thanks...
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