Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,
Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?

Below the branches, here about,
Do not you sense my fear and doubt?
Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
Do not you hear my woeful screams?

Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
Do not you see my hearts a'skew?
Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
Do not you feel my jagged scars?

Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,
For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees.

It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,
Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.
It's drifting o're the gentle rain,
A symbol of my silent pain.

It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,
Conjoined with all the sorrow there.
It's lost among the stars this night,
Too far to ease my quiet fright.

No gentle winds, seek not my heart,
For simply ... it has torn apart.


so yea...this is how i am feeling right now...
only those who are close to me have really noticed...
i am really sorry that if i have spoilt your mood but something which i have witnessed have really made me think twice...
is it worth living like how i am living now?
It might not be worth it...everything that i have painstakingly tried to achieve are all falling apart...and no one can understand that...
i really want to tell someone...just anyone..how i feel...
i am going to explode...
really...i don't know where is my limit...i cannot even see one...
the only limit we have is death...the ultimate one...

Sorry to all...
my condolences to myself...
what nice 14 years and 326days i have been living...it has been fun while it lasted...torn apart by the fearsome truth and strength of reality...
my cacoon of comfort are no longer there for me...must i fight this battle alone?