Sunday, May 10, 2009 @ Sunday, May 10, 2009
To: someone*

I'm really sorry for screwing up...
I just dunno why but its an ailment that triggers in me very easily...
You know something...
I find the strength to stand up and fight from my ESSENTIALS
So i'm utterly sorry for being such an ass for whatever i've done...
Don't say its nothing but i can tell that you're stressed/upset by my behaviour...
Really am sorry...
I hate myself so much that this happens...
Its really nothing to do with ya...entirely me...honest...
Its a problem that i have...
One that i always tryto conceal but to no avail...
I'm so sorry...
Its times like thee that makes me feel that I've not done my job well...
that i made you sad when i'm supposed to be making you happy
And trust me...
Seeing my ESSENTIALS (that definitely includes YOU) sad is the last thing i want...
Because my ESSENTIALS are my pillars...
So when they crumble...i crumble...
I'm so sorry...

Some of you readers might think that i depend too much on my ESSENTIALS
but let me tell you this...
It's because i trust them so much that i'm willing to listen and do everything they say!
So don't say i'm naive...you just lack analytical skills