I realised that i haven't been true to myself...
How true that what we see need not be what is real
Many things that i did, i realised was in vain
Certain things are meant to be that way and cannot be changed

I guess when people think they know me, they really don't
When people assume this, it's actually that

Do i really look like a perfect happy person to you?
Do you think that i'm so full of optimism and cheerfulness?
Do you think that i don't get angry?
DO YOU THINK THAT I HAVE NO FEELINGS?!

I hate my life in a season of love, christmas...
How nice...
If this christmas goes great, well, i'll just get a heart attack and die
Only 3 things in this world can make this christmas better
And to be honest, i seriously doubt it's gonna happen

Coming to that, the next topic...
HOPE? well...don't
Cos you're just going to feel worse when it doesn't happen that way
Been there MILLIONS of times...and have experienced the pain
Something not pleasurable and not for the faint-hearted

I seriously hoped for the better
But well...i've changed my mind
Nothing in this god damm world is giving me a point to have hope
Everything just dampens my spirit

WHAT YOU SOW, SO SHALL YOU REAP?
BULLSHIT!
I do good and well...i pretty much got shit in return...
Where's the justice?

Sayonara